Thursday, April 16, 2009

It's Bright In Here

Sometimes, if you 86 the rose-colored glasses for long enough, you can step outside yourself and take in your life from the outside; perhaps as another would see it. When I was married, I would do this frequently. I knew my ex was a total phony and a completely selfish being. He didn't do anything for anyone unless there was something to gain, even if it was just praise. Even though I could see right through his nonsense, I was silent. This silence was deafening over time and I learned I can only take in so much bullshit before I come unhinged. It's toxic. If you swallow enough piles of it, it will make you sick. Hence, of course, why I am now unmarried.

Now, as I lower the rims, I see a new image coming into focus and, unlike before, I like what I see. Back then, when someone would ask me how I was doing, I would simply tell the white lie we all tell and answer with a polite, "fine, thank you." Now, when someone asks me how I'm doing, I can honestly answer, "great," with a sincere smile. It's a rare moment when one can say they truly have no complaints in life. Think about it. To be sure, I am not speaking of the occassional road rage, of which I am notoriously guilty, or the stressful day at work. I'm speaking of incandescent happiness and contentment within every element of your life. I can say emphatically that, yes, I have arrived. It's the land of the emotionally-mature, and it's a nice place to visit. Perhaps I'll stay a while. Or forever.

Take a step outside. Take off the glasses. Who colors your world so brightly just by being in it? Friend...lover...parent...child? Whomever it is, relish and appreciate them, because this is it.


Jane said...

My world is currently red and angry...I wish it was the glasses! :)

Azura said...

At least it's not black and gray, dear. =)

Jason Harx said...

"I am not speaking of the occassional road rage"I should warn you to avoid Garland, the drivers in this town will surely tinge your outlook on life.

Azura said...